not happy

Okay, so this week has been anything but exciting. I
haven't seen Randy in like a week, except for today when I had the chance to meet him
at Walmart, but that was for like a split 3 seconds. I haven't had the chance to
really, really, really, spend time with him. I have been working this week basically
duing lunch, and then spending time with my cousins from Texas. Nothing to dramatic,
just a lot of chilling.

OH FRICKIN YA, I AM SUPERLY PISSED AT MY DAD BECAUSE HE DOESN'T HAVE MY CAR REGISTARED WHICH WAS SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN BACK IN FEBRUARY!!!

I swear he is a fuckin lazy ass and I want to kick him in the ovaries!!! GRRRR!!

Weekly Quote

There is nothing so easy to learn as experience and nothing so hard to apply.

Josh Billings

Superly Pissed

Okay, so I was very pissed last night. Randy was having this party and some of my friends were going to be there. I haven't seen Randy since Friday night, but I haven't really had the chance to spend time with him, so I wanted to go. I also haven't seen some of my friends for a really long time, so again, another reason to go. Well anyway, on our way back (my family) from my family reunion at McCormick's Creek State Park, my mom dropped me off at work. I guess when she came home, she got onto my computer and my msn messenger was up. She viewed my inbox and saw emails from Match.com. When she picked me up from work, she was super pissed that I had signed up for something like that and that is was a whorish act and that there are perverts on there mainly and couldn't believe that I would actually meet them. When in reality when I signed up for hotmail, hotmailed signed me up for Match.com and created me a profile, so I didn't sign up for it. And number two I would never meet anyone off of there anyway, just a friend to chat with. I mean come on, I live in basically a secluded area. Being gay, I don't know a lot of other gay people so I feel a little bit lonely. It would feel nice to know that I have others similar to me to fall back on (besides Randy). Then she was going to take away my laptop, but she hasn't yet. GRRRRR! I wish she would just let me go and live my life. I appreciate her trying to protect and watch over, but damn. I am almost 18, and going to be a senior. Let me live my life and make my own mistakes or how am I going to learn. I am actually smarter than what I act or appear to be.

Newest Fad

Back in the day, one of the main issues was racism. Racism of Latin American, Chinese, Indian, and mostly African Americans. Many immigrants and colored people suffered through years of torment and suffering. In fact, some of that racism still exists today. But how? The racism living in today's society is not of that towards African American, but homosexuality...people who are different from the normal. I believe that in the 21st century, many people face more criticism for being openly gay than being black. But why? Society fears change, they cannot/nor do not care to understand or accept. Homosexuality IS in fact different from heterosexuality, but on one basis, the preference of a sex. So why is that we are condemned to the pit of hell or made tragic in the eyes of humans. We are merely the same: skin, eyes, hair, emotions, physical. We are made to live in fear, fear for our lives. When people cannot accept what they do not understand, they retaliate. The lives of many homosexuals are endangered while some live peacefully. Those of us who are endangered have an unconditional fear of being brutally beaten, both physically and verbally/mentally. I, however, strongly believe that we are the most unique. Although living with that fear, we continue to face the world full-on, without looking back in doubt. We are a minority in reality, but a majority at heart. I've learned not to be afraid of who I am, but to embrace it. Life cannot and will not go on if we hide from what we must face.

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So I went to Purdue this weekend...what an exciting thing! I was attending the North Indiana Conference of the United Methodist Church. If you didn't attend, let me tell you...you didn't miss anything exciting! While I was down there, I go to visit my friend Melissa. She is the bomb of all bombs, the coolest of all cool, and ???.