....

Esther's viewing was yesterday (sunday)
It was good to go. I will miss her...a lot of people will.

After four hours of sleep, I went into work. I stayed
at work for eight hours...which about killed me.
After that, I walked 20 min to class to find out that
it was cancelled (yay!!) so I went back and took
a four hour nap. I definitely needed it.

I just feel kind of bleh right now.
Some people are pissing me off
with the way they are treating me...

I'm irritated with some of my brothers in my frat...
just a bunch of bullshit is going down...

and I still think I'm going to be single for the rest of my life
especially since the state passed the bill the second time
to amend the constitution making same sex marriage illegal.
Now we shall have to see what 2008 will bring...WAR!! haha jk!

its snowing...

Its snowing outside...














Poor little squirrel huddled against the tree

mmm

I got a little distracted while studying...
I actually like this picture.
April, what do you think?

fraud

soo thanks to my cousin's training on how to
recognize fraud emails
and thanks to the idiot who sent it
because purdue totally ruined their html code
so when they had the link, it showed where the
link was actually suppose to go with the intention of having
something like "click here to change password"
i managed to avoid a difficult situation
and I told chase about it!!

ne ways...thanks april...LOVE!!!

5:10 AM

So its 5:10 in the morning and
I've been tossing and turning
all night long.
My neck is soar,
my eyes hurt,
my stomach hurts.

I haven't a decent week's
sleep since I quit smoking.
I'm not complaining about
the smoking, it was a good
choice, but I wish withdrawal
or whatever the hell wasn't
such a bitch sometimes.

hmm

I have discovered that one of my new favorite drinks
is Jungle Juice! I was sooooo wasted drinking that shit.
Last night was pretty good. After Rush 001, I met Josh
at Hookah where I wished Michael a Happy Birthday.
Then Josh, Rob, and I drove back to Crawfordsville.
We went to this really crazy house party that was jammed
packed full of people. It was really ridiculous, but hey FREE DRINKS!

I came back this morning where I have basically been putting
myself back together. Had lunch, a little homework, some laundry.
Tonight I think that I am going to stay in (no partying)
and maybe do some homework. Maybe Melissa will want to see Dreamgirls...hmm.
Welp, I'm off. Shower time!!!

new...

So, I'm trying to quit smoking.
Its kind of hard and definitely killing me.
I have successfully gone 38 hrs w/o one.
I'm getting more tired.
A little more edgy.
I feel sick, like I have a fever.
I am eating like tons more (booo)

but it will be better if I can remain clean.

I am going on a date with a boy tomorrow night.
He attends Wabash College. We had a date
Monday night, which was really good.
He is very intellectual, smart, cute,
funny, great personality, a little high maintenance,
but, HELLO!! SO AM I!!

slaying

so I officially decided that I am done killing people hehe.
I'm just thankful I didn't get any of their nasty cunt filled blood
on my good jeans!
Anyways, its snowing today.
Its all white and puffy...almost want to eat it!
Remember, don't eat it if its not white, yet alone yellow.

annoying...

Ok, so last semester was a BIG mistake.
This semester I have to turn things around,
which I have tried to start off good habits this first wk.

I am at least 1 wk ahead in math, a lecture ahead in psychology,
and well the other classes are don't have the much leeway with.

but what annoys the hell out of me is the people in my hall way and my roommate.
#1
I'm sitting here minding my own business and there is noise EVERYWHERE!!
My roommate has his music/computer up loud. He has the TV on and up loud.
One end of the hallways, someone has their amp and guitar up loud.
On the other end, someone has their stereo up loud.
Seriously, have people not heard of resprect (or maybe I'm just a bitch)

#2
So, I'm again in my room, but stu
dying and was for the past hour when my roommate comes in and starts talking to me and blah blah blah (mind you, that I was reading psychology)
Then he turns on the TV full blast (still studying, have been for myself for like an hour) and
he leaves the room. Comes back, the leaves again. Comes back, then leaves again.

But anyways, I'm done studying for right now. My brain is tired and so am I!

whomever is leaving the anonymous posts
can forget me mentioning anything to randi
she is an adult and will figure things out when time comes.
You must remain out of their lives and live your own.
If you are so concerned with it, tell her yourself.
Otherwise, I will have no mess in this bloody drama.

Second--
To all my lovely readers...
What I post in here is what I am thinking
This is my place to bitch
BITCH BITCH BITCH BITCH

I am in no way, trying to use
my notes or blogging in the form
of persuasions or arguement.
Read what I have to say
then move on.
Don't bug me asking if it was
about you, or someone else.
Just accept what is written.

If you have a problem,
address me in person/phone call
NOT over text
NOT over facebook
NOT over myspace
NOT over AIM

It pisses the hell out of me
because you can read,
but can't interpret the meaning
behind that which was read.
Ok, I'm done bitching.
ADIOS!

typical update

Dunno,

I ended something today that should
have been ended probably when I came
down here, but it never happened.

Last night was one of the worst
nights I have ever had with another
person. I can't explain the feeling
except to say that I don't want
to feel like that ever again.

So, I definitely forgot my bookbag
in my friends car...who came visited me.
They went back to fort wayne.
So, I had melissa take me to meet
my parents in wabash so that I
might collect what belonged to me.

After having a couple conversations
I half way found my self,
but again lost myself to nothing.
I dunno, I wanna change
but its the changing part that is hard.

I really like this guy. He knows
that I like him, but he doesn't
want anything except for friends.
Some circumstances are also a factor.
I dunno what to do...
I'm about to give up on love...

AARRRGGHHHH!! Wow, today has not been my day.
I wake up this morning a little groggy, then rolled out
of bed to eat lunch with Megan, Steven, and Andy.
I was a little edgy because of my certain nicotine not
being present. Then after lunch out of nowhere, I
have this anger that builds inside of me.
My emotions go through the roof,
my thoughts are never ending...
it was pure HELL!!!

I finally went for a jog...I feel a little better...
but now I have someone pissed at me...not cool.

I'm out...homework calls!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELLY!!!
I LOVIE YOU!!

Your Hidden Talent

You have the power to persuade and influence others. You're the type of person who can turn a whole room around. The potential for great leadership is there, as long as you don't abuse it. Always remember, you have a lot more power over people than you might think!

What's Your Hidden Talent?

grr...i am up still up.

i need to be up in about

3.5 hours...hehe.

Oh well. I hate the fact

that we have brains

or can just randomly think.

when you think things are fine

they hit you back in the face.

waaaaaaBBAAAAAAAMMMMMM!!!

You don't know what to do.

I'm leaving soon.

but not soon enough.

I have some good friends I

am leaving behind. :(

I can't be here to support them.

it makes me sad. I'm glad I met them.

Well, i'm gonna go, bye!

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

hey hey hey!!
givin a holla
from the west laf area!!

Sup yos?? I am here
only for a couple days.
I need a break time.
I LOOOOOVE IT here!!

peace out!

pooped!

So I decided today that I would run. I haven't done it since

October and I have a lot of emotional build up.

Running has always helped me to drain that problem.

But lets just say that

#1 it was hott and muggy.
#2 definitely out of shape
#3 still not drinking enough water
#4 i am dog gone tired!!!

Welp, I'm out.

gay v. straight

Seven Reasons Why Gay People Are Better Than Straight People

You know you think it all the time. Now it is justified.

1) When we have kids it's because we really want them. Goodness knows we all hear about those silly "breeders" who practice unsafe sex and then get a "surprise" one day. Gay people don't have it so easy. When we want to have children there's always a third party (be it a test-tube, a surrogate, an adoption agency, etc.), adding to the already great challenge of deciding to become a mother or a father. We're not saying it makes us better parents, but OK, that's what we're saying. 2) We have better style. If we didn't, would there have been a Queer Eye for the Straight Guy? We think not. And given that most celebrated male fashion designers bat for our team, we rest our case. 3) We set the trends. How else can you explain us wearing $500 designer jeans years before they were popular? And where would metrosexuality be if we hadn't been getting ourselves plucked and waxed for eons? These may not be good things, but still, we were there first. 4) We take better care of ourselves. You know you walked into your 10-year high school reunion with more hair, fewer wrinkles, less fat, and better fashion than any other guy in your class. Be proud. 5) When it comes to partying, we do it up right. Every straight gal pal of yours (and some of your hetero guy friends too) tells you they have more fun at a gay club than they do at a straight club. And naturally most of the hottest party planners are queer. It's because we're more fun. No really, we are. 6) We are devoted. Be good to us, we'll be good to you. No matter the generation, we stick with our divas (see Judy, Barbra, Bette, Madonna). And, hey, we're brand loyal too! 7) Watch out for our wit. Growing up as outsiders (to one degree or another) forces us to be verbally fast on our feet. So be nice, or a cutting remark will slice you down to size.