Days are getting rough,
the number is getting smaller.
I can't wait for August to arrive
so that I can get outta here!!!
I saw my brother tonight. He is
out of the specialty care unit,
but in a rehab at parkview-ft wayne.
There they are trying to help him
become more independent. Basically
he is out of the coma, but doesn't have
control over his body. He is in the
process of relearning all of that.
My sister's 16th birthday was today
and she wanted to have a little celebration
at the hospital so my brother may be
apart of it. I was fine the whole time
until it was time to leave. You see,
it is hard for me to witness my mom going
through what she is. It kills me deep down inside.
She had little tears in her eyes.
Mindy (basically Adam's gf) had tears too.
My mom and dad were trying to help him (adam) walk.
It was hard for me to watch. I slowly became teary
myself. They sat him back down and took him to his room,
where they were going to put him in his bed.
My mom leaned down and he (adam) gave her a hug
and a little kiss. i lost it. i don't
know what to do. Mom said I had to tell him
bye. I didn't want to do it, but i did.
I sucked it up, and started to give him a hug.
He reached up and gave one back. i lost it again.
its hard, but i know he loves me. i was scared
of what he thought of me being gay, my own brother.
We have a long road to go yet.
My friend Randi is in Jamaica right now and
I can't talk to her. I am graduating in
four weeks, and I am super excited. State convention
is in less that a month, yippee!! Melissa is going
to help sign up for classes. I miss melissa too!!
I should go down there and stay a weekend once
things aren't so crazy. I am glad randi
is away. She doesn't have to put up with
some of the shit that is happening. I have
people telling me her bf is a backstabbing jerk
who is just using her. Randi tells me she is
in love with this boy and wants to get married someday.
I don't know what to think. I am not sure if
I trust him either. I am excited for Randi,
but something inside of me tells me
something is wrong. I dunno, just don't know.
